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Be Fearless

This morning before I swiped my badge and make my way to my car, an envelope was slipped into my pocket. We smiled like children passing each other notes behind the teachers back. I was so temped to rip it open in front of everyone. I knew whatever it was, it was going to make me smile from ear to ear. There is some people in this world that is just plain descent. With no added extra BS. My coworker is such a sweetheart. I hope to meet more people like her in 2024 and years to come. Simple notes with kind words of appreciation is literally all it takes. I will cherish this forever. Yes, this little card has me choked up.

Edge Wrap for your edges.

I keep telling myself that I’m going to work on passive income of some sort. But What? I had to figure out what I’m good at and take it from there. To think that I was sitting on so many different skills. Sewing, crotchet, art, coding, I mean my mother did so much while raising me, her gifts will be passed on to my girls as well. I watched mom sew all of my outfits as a single mother with a set income. She made life work for her. I want to add what I know, plus what she taught me and go after a few dreams I didn’t know I had. http://www.friendlyvirgodesigns.shop is the first official business move I’ve made in 2023. Full steam ahead, I’m about to push for greatness. I will sharpen my skills, attend every business function I can reach, rub shoulders with the known and unknown. Take in all the advice and stories anyone wants to share. I’m excited for this next chapter in my life. I will be fearless. I will be intentional. I want to recap this year at the end of December knowing I crossed off a few goals, milestones, and demolishing a few fears. I’m too good of a person to care about if people will like me.I’m likable! Awkward, but likable.

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Covid-19 has been the main factor in life taking a turn for my household. The girls seem to be growing before my eyes. Keeping up with Girl Scouts, Cheerleading, school plays, softball and all their academic activities all the while still maintaining my night work schedule at the hospital. Sleep? Whats that?! Some days I forget if I’m coming or going. Im not as sharp as I use to be. Life is lifing. I mean, really. I sometimes call Savannah Giselle’s name in mid sentence. Can’t call it pregnancy brain anymore, that ship has sailed seeing that Giselle is now 7 years old.

Baby girl is surprising her mother everyday with how smart she is. Not to say my daughters is slow or lacking smarts. Giselle was diagnosed with a condition that had me in shambles these past couple of years. I have my random moments that I break out in tears. The fear of my daughter not being able to live a long fruitful life is troubling. There is too many wicked people on this earth to trust my daughter around. I am definitely holding her hand and guiding her to make sure no one takes advantage of her trust and kindness. I can break out in a cry without warning. And I don’t care really. These days I am doing a lot better. She’s such a great daughter. Giselle looks up to her big sister so much. She wants to be so much like her. She’s not afraid to show her independence. But not being in the same school building is effecting her and it shows. Savannah use to pop in her class room to check in on her. They would sometimes eat together. This school year reports have said she gets very passionate through out the day with the teachers and some of the students. Im trying to teach her how to redirect her emotions when she is having her bad days. Savannah isn’t always going to be there and she’s getting it now. Especially now the Savannah will be going to high school next year.

Savannah is applying to a few schools of interest and I couldn’t be more excited. Public schools in the area isn’t offering the education that I think my girls deserve. We are looking into catholic or all girls school for the high school years. Believe it or not, it’s Savannah’s idea. Visiting schools reminds me of college tours. Checking out classrooms, activities and clubs. She’s so exciting for cheerleading tryouts seeing that she is competing presently with pop warner. She won her first competition two weeks ago. I am so proud of her. I am now THAT mom. I almost feel like I’m on the show ‘Dance Moms’.

I am still manifesting a few things in my life that I feel is missing. I haven’t been seeing my therapist this year and Im not proud of that. That work life balance isn’t quite balancing. Im going to get it together. Single mom life isn’t for the weak. But I am trying my best to stay head strong. The Thanksgiving and Christmas Season always puts me in a good mood. I can’t wait to whine down a little and slow the pace. Next year Im hoping to go back to school and finally use my talents and smarts for something. I don’t think I have found my calling and that’s OK. I fee like I still have the time to figure it out.